still alive...

Salam.

Yes, Im still alive. Sihat walafiat. Its been 2 years and half since my last post. Pheww~ Many things had happened in these 2 and half years. Its a very very long period though. If Im about to write everything that happened in these years, I bet you will die out of breath and energy to read my post right? haha.

So, what kind of story I want to tell haa? hurm? lemme think first.... 😏 Maybe just a short update about my current living and condition now. OK?

Alhamdulillah, Ive quit my job as a house officer after been working at Hospital Tawau in Surgical Department for about 3 months. Regret? Maybe a lil bit but more and more grateful for the decision that Ive made. I feel alive again after 3 months of sleepless night, restless, mentally and physically exhausted, losing weight (like a living corpse), and many others. But, afterall I love my job as a doctor. Not everything is bad and unpleasant. Its just the working environment that exhausts me. I never feel burdened whenever i attend my patients. From changing the urine cathether, setting branula, taking blood, taking history, transfusing blood, run here and there, upstairs and downstairs or even dressing the breast cancer or burn patients. Im really really happy to help with a BIG heart. Even they said that the salary of being a doctor was good, but for me its not enough compared to lots of sacrifices that I had to make. Id rather choose time instead of money. I choose to be happy than living in a hectic stressful life. Well, I think its all worth it. Ive gained my weight back! hahaha. 😆 Alhamdulillah.

Now, Im working as a teacher at Sekolah Rendah Islam Al-Fateh, Taman Ria. Its been 2 years already. No wonder I didnt update my blog since 2 years. Its because Im busy working and teaching little caliphs at my school. haha. Once a blogger, forever a blogger right? Im happy with my job now. And I love my job. Eventhough sometime kinda tired and stress but its still bearable. The feeling just went away when you had best and cool workingmates and a good working environment.

May Allah gives me the strength to keep going on this track. May Allah guides me always and eases my way. Because people come and go in our life. We cant told them to stay like we want it to be. They have their own right and responsibilities too. But for surely, Allah puts them in your life for a reason. Think thats enough. Readers, you! Yes you! please pray for me okay? Thank you. ^__^

Two weeks left...

Salam.

After a long pause with no update, so here's a quick update. Cause its too late right now. Need to sleep. Hehe.

Yeah! Two weeks left for me before i start my new chapter of life as a houseman at Hospital Tawau. These few weeks, i am busy settling everything before i start my work soon. Alhamdulillah. Almost everything had been prepared.

- Insyirah's pengasuh checked!

- medical check-up checked!

- find new house to move in later checked!

- new spectacle half way to go!

- baju batik on the way!

- driving liscence checked!

- practice driving alone checked! Haha (must mention jgak ke?)

- akuan sumpah checked!

And many many others. Fuhh! Yang belum checked! lagi mungkin my knowledge about medicine. Ahhh.. Its been a year already (almost actually). Hehe. My brain need to be polished back. Semua dah lupa. I just hope that everything will be as smooth as smoothie. Slurppp... Haha.

Ok, my PTM (induksi) will be on 27th October 2014. Waaaaaa... I feel like screaming out loud! Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusanku ini.

#throwback at Kundasang Heritage Resort & Spa (Perkasa Hotel)

Hadiah ibu untuk aby

Alhamdulillah. Yeay! Barang dah sampai. Waterproof case aby dah sampai. Cari punya la cari pusing satu Tawau (padahal satu mall Servay Jaya tu je) cari Waterproof case ni, tapi tak ada satu pun kedai yang jual. Akhirnya, bukak la "kedaionline". kedai mana lagi kalau bukan dekat instagram. Haha. Cari punya cari, nampak boleh percaya, order la satu! Haha. Ibu beli waterproof case ni dekat ig @ameksstudio. xingat sangat the exact spelling. sorry kalau tersilap. Dalam kepala ingatkan kedai dia ni kat Kay El la u know. haha. Sebab mcm ramai giler follower. Bila amek barang kat Poslaju tengok2 tup2 kat KK aka Kota Kinabalu, Sabah bha. Di centre point. Punyala dok ingat kat sabah ni xdak orang jual natang ni. hekhek. ok. Thats it! Lepas ni bolehla kita selfie2 dalam ayaq laut gitew kan aby kan? because selfie with food is too mainstream. Lets selfie with the fish plak. haha. Okeh. Nin dia casing tu. RM50 termasuk pos.

Kax. Ape tu?

Salam.

Hehe. Just a short update! Saje nak tulis sebab xboleh tidoq, perut lapaq, badan malas nak bangun, kaki malas nak jalan turun bawah.

So, semalam ibu ada latihan memandu kt IMC (institut memandu cemerlang). Dah bawak g jalan raya. Oh oh syoknya! Dalam hati tgh control and fokus je sebab bawak keta dekat jalan raya. Huhui.. Best jgak rasanya! Yela, best kalau tahu jalan. Xtahu jalan, sesat, stress saja! Ibu bawak keta ni xleh lebih sejam dah hilang fokus and xlarat dah. Haha. Apo la. Ngade betui! Cikgu Omar kata kat ibu, "ini kena jogging selalu ni." Bila dia tgk ibu dah penat xlarat bwk keta. Kui3. Nampak sgt x energetic. Phew =.='

So, after latihan memandu aby pegi celcom. Wat ape? Haaaa... Dari malamnye lagi aby dah berkobar2 pasang niat nak g tebus hadiah patung kax ni haa.. Bukan main lama nak tebusnya pun. Ponek ibu tunggu dalam kete. Syirah tdo atas ibu. Akhirnya dapat la dua ekoq kucing. Sekoq kaler biru sekoq kaler pepel. Pakau jersey German n italy. Demam bola jugak kucing ni ha.. Aicehh..

Ni le ghupenye kax tu. Besor.jugak ghupenye. Ingatkan besaq keychain je. Huhu. Rezeki2.. Rezeki toys baru utk syirah la.. Mia Kax and Joey Kax!

2 in 1

Salam.

Semalam 15/6/2014 merupakan satu tarikh melibatkan dua peristiwa penting. Chewwah! Penting la sangat. Xde. Kebetulan jatuh pada hari yang sama. Ok. What whas it?

- ulangtahun kelahiran ibu yang ke? Berapa eh? Erm jap nak kira... 2014-1989 = 25. YES... 25 years. Alhamdulillah

- keduanya, hari final exam master degree aby. Yeay!! Congrats aby! Semoga nanti insyirah rajin belajar mcm aby ye. Jangan jadi mcm ibu. Ibu kurang rajin sikit dari aby. Hehehe...

And today, bini kedua aby dah sampai.. Hukhukhuk... Nak tengok xrupa dia? Ni dia....

Many many happy returns

Alhamdulillah thumma Alhamdulillah...
Banyak perkara yang patut disyukuri kerana terlalu banyak nikmat dan kasih sayang yang melimpah ruah Allah bagi.

Baru-baru ni result sem 3 hubby keluar and hubby dapat good pointer. Alhamdulillah! Semalam new BIG baby dah sampai. Haha. And semalam jugak (26/2/2014) result final year yang ditunggu tunggu sudah keluar! Alhamdulillah. Setelah 6 tahun setengah memaksa diri untuk menghabiskan jugak degree course in medicine akhirnya grad jugak! Alhamdulillah!! Weeeeeeeee!! Dalam hati hanya Allah yang tahu. Verily, He heard every prayer that we made and ask from Him. So, dont ever lose hope! Ok?

Sekarang hati dah tenang sebab dah boleh start next plan. And xpayah runsing2 fikir nak kena balik egypt balik ke tak. Seriously Im gonna miss all this soon. Egypt will always remain in my memory forever (selagi xkene dementia or Alzheimer la).

Above all, He is the best planner! THANK YOU ALLAH!

Alkisah rumah baru

Salam.

Hari Sabtu lepas seharian keluar mencari barang rumah. Cari and survey2 perabot and tikar getah sebab hujung minggu saja la yang free. Hari-hari sekolah aby sangat busy. Keluar tengah pagi lepas subuh balik pulak lewat petang. And adat bila nak membeli, yang mana berkenan itula yang xde stok. So, redhakan hati beli tikar getah yang kalernya gelap sedikit. T_T If anyone yang duduk sekitar Sabah, kalau nak cari tikar getah beli yang jenama Maslino sebab lebih tebal and susah nak koyak. I dont know if this brand ada di Semenanjung or not. Balik rumah tidurkan insyirah baru la boleh start pasang tikar. Alhamdulillah. Ponat eh! Nampak macam senang je. Nak angkat tikar ni saja memang xterangkat lah. Ibu tolong aby pasangkan tikar kat bawah. Nanti kalau tetamu datang selesa sikit. Tunggu sofa pulak sampai nanti ye!

Photoshoot day!

Salam.

Today, we went to Penang. Insyirah ada appointment dekat Penang General Hospital. After finished meeting with the doctor, we went back. On our way back, singgah di Sungai Dua. Pergi ke kedai Jeruk Madu Pak Ali. We bought some jeruk yang dipesan oleh kawan-kawan husband di Sabah. Perut mula terasa lapar. Seperti biasa, akan singgah di Tesco Seberang Jaya.

Selepas makan, saja singgah di kedai kamera. Tersangkut pulak dengan baby contest yang dianjurkan kat situ in conjunction dengan tesco sendiri. Lagipun dia akan cuci gambar bagi dekat kita terus. Itu yang best tu sebab zaman sekarang orang dah malas cuci gambar, semua tangkap and stay dalam handphone, tab aje. Pastu hilang. huhu. So, amek peluang konon nak masuk contest tapi sebenarnya nak gambar je. So, Insyirah pun berphotoshoot lah! weeeee! tangkap punya tangkap dekat 101 gambar. Here goes some pictures, tadaa!

comel x saya?

hehe. terima kasih membaca! buibui~

Crawling award!

Bismillah.

Alhamdulillah today 14th Feb of 2014, Insyirah can crawl forward sepenuhnya without reverse!! I am a happy mum!! Excitedly she crawl towards me when she saw i am preparing her semisolid food (mashed banananana...) huhu. I am the one who got shocked to see her like that. Ha ha ha. So, im thinking that i have to be extra careful from now on about her safety especially if she is on the bed. Phew. Fyi, insyirah has turned 7 month last 8th Feb. Alhamdulillah. She grown up so fast!

This evening we are going to fly back to semenanjung for insyirah's appointment at Penang GH on Monday.

penat tunggu abi dalam kereta, kita selfie!

Insyirah's new achievement!

Salam.

Yesterday, Friday 3rd Jan 2014, 0313

Mom texted me,

"Ciwah dah ngesot pi blkg dah"

Since it was my first time as a mother, I was like, REALLY?? I was so so so happy to hear that. She's grown so fast! I couldn't see her new milestone with my own eyes. So sad. After all I'm really grateful for His blessings that had made ease for everything while I'm away. I can't imagine if something bad happened or maybe her development is not quite much and slower than her cousin, how am I going to feel at ease like now. I'm a little bit concern about her milestone because she was born premature. About a month and half earlier than the EDD. Plus, I'm far far away from my baby girl. Just can watch from far.

And just now, mom send a picture of her and said,

"Tgk ni"

"Dh sampai dinding dah"

Hahaha. Mengesot ke blkg sampai dinding then cannot reverse anymore. There you go girl! Ibu so happy with you! clap3x*

Also, makteh told me that now she had to sing a twinkle twinkle song to make Insyirah sleep. Insyirah fall asleep easily after makteh sang her the twinkle twinkle little star song. Amboi anak ibu ni! Kemain dia ye! Lullaby bagai~ hehe ;)

Semoga Insyirah kenal and mahu dekat ibu bila ibu balik nanti. Huhu T_T

I love you sayang.

Bayangan rindu

Macam mana ni? Dari beberapa jam yang lepas masih xberubah. Dok muka surat tu jugak.. Pandang je nota, terbayang teringat anak. Baca satu ayat, teringat anak. Ulang balik baca teringat anak. Bila boleh habis study ni? Exam lagi berapa hari je lagi. Tsk tsk. Ya Allah, aku sungguh lemah. Tiada daya melainkan kekuatan dariMu sahaja. Pinjamkan ku secubit kekuatan dan ketenangan dalam hati ini untuk terus berusaha. Sikit saja lagi. Bertabahlah duhai hati. Ibu rindu insyirah. Ibu rindu aby. Ibu rindu sayang sayang ibu. Ya Allah, Engkau tolong jagakan orang2 yg kusayang sepanjang ketiadaan ku di sisi mereka ya Allah. 20 days more. Please bear it for a little bit more.

New Year New Spirits

Bismillah

Today marks the end of 2013. Tomorrow will be a new year 2014. Alhamdulillah for all the blessings and ni'mah. Terlalu banyak memori, kenangan manis, pahit, masam dan masin yang berlaku tahun ini. Huhu. Kisah mengandungkan puteri dalam peyut, ibu pergi berjalan sana sini, terlompat sana sini (astaghfirullah), bawak maktok tokwan and makyong (eh, eham sekali) jenjalan pergi Luxor-Aswan, naik cruise (oh, serius best!) asyik makan je, lepas tu attend makyong punya convo 2 kali, pergi kelas hari2 si puteri dalam peyut suka menendang bila dengar doktor tengah lecture kat depan, turun naik mustasyfa gamaah, pegi ANC dengan aunty2, ulang alik jumpa doktor macam2 dek masalah pruritis masa mengandung, idiopathic epistaxis yang boleh dikatakan hari2, sampaila terberanak dekat mesir petang hari lepas exam end round (timing baik punya!) mujur ibu xterberanak dalam flight, aby dan maktok terbang mai mesir, kawan2 semua datang melawat ziarah puteri ibu sorg nih, balik malaysia puteri ibu doktor diagnose PDA (sebab lahir premature), ulang alik follow up hospital, pergi KL jenguk sepupu insyirah baru lahir, insyirah kene warded sebab batuk2 dan selesema, doktor diagnose pneumonia warded 6 hari jugaklah, sambung follow up case PDA kat Penang, maktok suruh ibu makan air gamat (terpaksa telan) Alhamdulillah good news lubang dekat jantung makin kecil, spend most of my time with my little angels before i'm going back to Egypt, ibu try hantar insyirah kat pengasuh Alhamdulillah u've been a good girl with aunt Noriah, and now i'm back in Egypt finishing my final exam, and missing my little ones in Malaysia! Now, counting days to go back and hugs my baby!!!! T_T ok cant write much, need to study. but i pray that may Allah ease my way and all my friends here. Please. I beg You. Hope 2014 will be much much better with much improvement and many many happy stories to be written. So here's a wrap of my 2013 from ig pics.

Clearance Sale

Bismillah.

Alhamdulillah most barang dah ada orang book untuk beli. Harapnya semua dapat terjual tanpa sebarang masalah nanti. InsyaAllah. Some items pun dah ada orang yang beli. Baju2 pun dah banyak clear kan. Im so excited nak balik jumpa anak dan suami dan keluarga semua. Semoga Allah mempermudahkan jalan dan urusanku. Ameen. Rindu sangat nak jumpa dan peluk Insyirah. Bila fikir balik rasa macam xpercaya yang dah ada anak. Dulu dulu selalu terfikir macam mana la rupa wajah anak. Alhamdulillah Allah masih bagi nikmat usia untuk sempat merasai bagaimana mengandung, melahirkan, dan mempunyai anak. Dan juga nikmat penglihatan dapat menatap wajah anak sendiri dan insan2 yang tersayang. Syukur ya Allah.

Sekarang tinggal lebih kurang sebulan je lagi untuk balik ke Malaysia. (Tiket xbeli lagi!!) Insyirah tunggu ibu tau. I miss you so much dear!!!! Kawan2 semua please doakan saya dan kawan2 di sini yang akan exam last paper for the last time as a medical student! Allahuakbar! Sungguh lama rasa. Mahu tak nya, 6 tahun setengah. Dan sekarang dah dengar2 cerita macam2 nanti kena compete utk dapat kerja. Yela, ada baik dan buruknya jugak. Xpe, jangan risau, bak my suami punya favourite qoute "Jangan risau.. rezeki Allah bagi" Ok abang, xrisau. I believe i can do many many many things else if just in case lambat dapat kerja or anything else happen. Sebenarnya memang macam2 dah dalam kepala ni. Dari dulu sampai sekarang, asyik fikir business2, tapi sape suh amek medic? haha. hamek kau! xdela. xkesah, apapun semua tu ilmu. xde rugi pun bahkan satu kelebihan dapat belajar medic ni taw. Kalau belajar betul2 la kan. hehe =,='

So, O&G please be nice to me bebeh. I want to smack you down! haha. be ready k?

Afterall, so so many thanks to my family mak abah, ummi, abangku sayang, kak iman, maktok, mak cik noriah, kawan2, jiran2 dan semua yang banyak memberi support dalam menghabiskan sisa-sisa terakhir untuk exam ni. Hanya Allah sahaja yang mampu membalas segalanya. Semoga Allah memberi kesihatan yg baik dan kebahagiaan hidup dunia dan akhirat. I love you all! Muah2!!~

I think she's ready..

Bismillah.

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.

Seronok melihat perkembangan anak membesar dengan sihat, aktif dan comel sekali. Hehe. Sedih pun ada sebab tak dapat bersama-sama membesarkan dan menjaga insyirah. Banyak perkara pertama yang insyirah buat yang xdapat ibu lihat secara live. Tahu-tahu je dah pandai menyembang, tahu-tahu je dah pandai nak meniarap, dan xlama lagi ibu akan terlepas scene insyirah's 1st semi solid food!! Sorry sayang. Ye, rasanya dah sampai masanya untuk insyirah start belajar2 menelan. Bulan depan dah 6 bulan. Sekarang kalau tengok orang makan, insyirah sendiri sudah menunjukkan minat iaitu tangan menggapai seperti nak ambil makanan, kaki nak melompat2, mata asyik tenung je tengok orang mengunyah, dan juga 'menggelupur' tengok orang makan. Haha. Anakku.. Lagipun dah nampak dia boleh duduk (supported) and boleh control kepala.. Fasa 'pop leleh' pun dah macam hilang je. xde dah air liur meleleh lagi dah. This is a sign that she can swallow her own saliva already. right?

Sebenarnya kalau boleh hari2 nak update, tapi semua bergantung kepada masa dan juga mood laptop 'usang' neyh. Sooo slow meh. Rasanya dah 7 tahun kot usia laptop DELL kesayanganku ini. Orang lain dah berapa kali tukar da. Mujur tengah winter, xde la asek kena 'syncope attack' je. haha. Alhamdulillah. Ni lah hadiah abah yang pertama yang buat aku terkedu dan terkejut dan excited masa kat matrik dulu. "Abah nak order laptop kat I and kak IM ni, nak kaler apa?" Wahh!! Really? trettt....... dah2!! xpayah la flashback banyak sangat, kang xpepasal post ni panjang berjela. ade ke yang larat nak membaca kau membebel ni? 

Insyirah tunggu ibu balik ye. Ibu xsabar nak buat makanan untuk insyirah. Sungguh penantian suatu penyiksaan. So, please stop countdown! Biar masa berlalu sampailah..... Eh, esok dah nak naik flight balik Malaysia. Yeh! yeh! yeh! Mommy is coming baby! huhu :) Ya Allah permudahkanlah segala urusan dunia dan akhiratku. Ameen.

gambar sewaktu lahir

penuh 1001 cerita

you're such a strong baby!

love you till my last breath

Freezing Friday

Bismillah.

Salam Jumuah.

What happen in Egypt?

Today after Jumuah's prayer, saya dengan housemates bawak adik Ummu yakni Syafiq bersama kawan2nya yang datang dari Kaherah pergi lunch dekat Da Vinci (The art of taste) sebelum mereka bertolak pulang. On the way walking cross the street, 2 big soldier's trucks and 1 van/lori bomba melintas di depan. Woooo! Whats that? Ada riot ke? Diorang nak tembak tear gas ke? Xdengar pulak kecoh2. Xde ape kot. So kitorang pun teruskan perjalanan ke kedai makan. Usually the restaurants, and shops here open after Jumuah/Zuhr's prayer, so all of us being their 1st customers. Pintu kedai pun masih lock lagi. Oh, outside so cold with the winter breeze. Nasib baik xlama selepas tu, owner kedai datang bukak and welcome us in. So, i ordered this,

Fettucinni bi qot'illahma

(Fettucinni with meatballs)

Nampak sikit sebab pinggan dia gedabak besar and dalam. Alhamdulillah. Sangat berpuas hati dengan makanan. Yela, perut dah kenyang! haha. Actually we love to come here instead of Spectra (bukan selalu ok? kalau ada majlis special saja) sebab the price here is more cheaper than Spectra, the food is more delicious (according to my tastebud and my housemates too. tastebud korang tak tau la kan) yet the menu is just about the same. And also the tax also less than the other one. Ni sedikit review la after mencuba kedua-dua kedai. We stick with Da Vinci.

Sebelum keluar kedai, Ummu cakap, "ingat lagi hari kak ihsan nak bersalin, petang tu kak ihsan pesan waffle nak makan suruh ummu take-away, tapi xda." Terus teringat, ooh hari nak bersalin tu ek? xdapat makan sebab waffle xde waktu tu. Dah habis ke camne ntah. Then i replied, "Kalau k.esan mati haritu, mesti ummu akan tulis kat fb, makanan terakhir yang arwah minta tapi xsempat makan ialah waffle topping coklat. kan? haha" ;p

Harini jugak, selepas 100++ tahun without snow, bumi Cairo turun snow. Bukan sikit ok. Tapi snow sampai covered jalan, kereta, pokok dan.... kambing! haha. Yes, it is true! Tapi, snow yg turun dikatakan dekat New cairo. Menanti dengan penuh harapan agar snow datang singgah ke Mansurah jugak. Please... Please... (puppy eyes). Enough with Egypt.

While in Malaysia..

Harini aby (my husband) whatsapp kata nak g amek insyirah hari ni kat Jitra. Rindu la tu! hehe. My heart smile =) So, malam ni, insyirah tido dengan aby and maktok kat Perlis. Aby cakap, Insyirah sekarang dah pandai golek badan sendiri dah kalau nak meniarap. Sebelum ni kene ada bantuan sikit untuk tolak badan dia. Good job sayang! Keep it up! Alhamdulillah. I'm a happy mom!! To see my baby growing up and see her progression/milestone make me a happy mom. Evethough dapat tengok dari jauh je. T_T InsyaAllah, xlama dah. One and half months to go. Semoga perancangan ini selari dengan apa yang diaturkan olehNya. InsyaAllah.

Just turn 5 months on 8th dec

Ok think enough for now. Gotta get some sleep and reset my sleep-clock! Sebab dah nak kena start study dengan seriousnya. 3 weeks to go before my last paper (O&G). Wish me all the best! Thank you for reading. Wassalam.

p/s : cerita pasal hari jumaat, tapi menulis ni dah pukul 2 pagi (sabtu).